再一次，我又哭了。。
原来当一个天使，是这么的难。。
我以为我可以做得到，
但我发现，原来我也是凡人一个。。
你以为我喝酒是为了爽吗？
也不是为了好睡点。。
喝太多，不用想这么多，晕了多好。。
喝太少，想得更多，越哭越痛苦。。
最近的你，变了很多，
我们也不像以前那样了。
话题少了，见面也少了，
连想我也少了。。
人生就是这样。。
每一次我爱的人，却不是爱我的人。。
我心里有话想说，心里的痛你懂吗？
有太多太多的情感覆水难收。。
也许你我的缘份就这样短吧，
没关系，我认命，我sui!!
如果你有了新的目标，
请你告诉我吧，
别让我这样猜测下去。。
因为这样比暗恋还来得痛苦你懂吗？？

My decision

Well...

i had made up my mind to leave her..

its quite hard for me,

but i will try my best..

And yah..we have no relation at all,

juz that i think too much..

That's the end of our stories,yes?

happy together with him ya..

byee...

BenBen&WuTao

Well..its been a long time i didnt upload blog..
This few weeks there's lots of things happen in my life..

The good news is i already let my ex go..

The good news is im falling in love with a girl..

I like to talk with her,

coz its comfortable..

She's really a good girl..

But,we wont have ending..

Coz i think i will not start it..

i know that she's still loving HIM..

So,i don wanna make her life more suffering..

When i look into her eyes,

i saw its all bout him..

She cried in front of me,coz she's worry bout HIM..

Well,i didnt do much..

jus give her few hugs..

And try to make her comfortable..

This feeling is complicated..

That night i told her that i already let her go..

but i think she wont know that i didnt..

That night is the 3rd times i cried for her..

But i didnt ask for more..

i juz wan her to happy always..

i wish her can happy together with that boy,

that's already good enough for me..

Bless u from my heart..

Lastly,i juz wanna tell u that,

Smile always..=)

p.s

Pls don mind that i put ur photo here,

there's the only memories for me..

no one

hey baby,
its been 1 month we seperate..
do u miss me?
maybe for 1 sec?
im doin good right now..
but im still missing u..
i think u don know bout it,
coz i promise myself wont text u,
coz that will hurt me..
they say time will help me to forget u,
but i think its take few years,maybe?
i used 3 years on my 1st ex...
are u doin good too?
feels free without my control?
maybe someday later,u will know its for ur own good..
but nvm...now i let u to walk ur own way..
sometimes i really hate u,
coz u doin something that i don like u to do..
but then u never know bout it,
i make the pain for myself,
then i suffer it back..
love you= hate you...
i think im not suitable for love..
im sucks on it...
i don mean to hurt anyone,
juz that u all didnt know me well...
if u say im controlling u too much,
then did u think bout why am i doin so?
don tell me that u are sorry..
coz its not worth if u dono why am i doin so...
oh ya...now i don have feel with beers anymore,
now i like chiwas+beers..
only can cover all those sad feels..

ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2 weeks

its already 2 weeks that we broke up...
and i think we changed a lot...
theres no more sweet but juz argue...
and i know its my fault..
coz keep argue with u....
sometimes i feels like dieing...
coz this time really hurt me too much...
i gave you all my heart...
and now my whole heart is bleeding..
i feels like im going to hurt myself....
so that i know im still alive with the pain...
or maybe can someone drunk me up???
JD+beers? redwine + beers? graveyard???5 bucket of beers?
if anyonefeels wanna drunk me up...
pls call me...anytime..anyplace...
u pay the money...
i pay my life....

Broken Hearts

baby...today is 5th of september...
and u know today is wat day?
its our 3rd month aniversarry..
and we broke up the day before this...
although im asking u to letting me go...
but then do u know i really suffer when im saying that...
and now its all over...its over...
I LOVE YOU STILL BABY..
i have no more chance to cook ur favorite mushroom soup and carbonara again..
i have no more chance to hugs u when u're cool..
i have no more chance to kiss you..
i wont forget our memories together..
and now im leaving u d...
pls do take care of urself...
i really hope that u wont luan shui anymore...
this is a last things that baby hope...
i dono when will u saw this text..
but when u saw it..pls think back of our times..
I LOVE U AND SORRY FOR WAT I DID..
goodbye baby...
9.20pm 5th october 2009
by mehmeh..
with a broken heart..its still bleeding..