family

Its been a long time i never post here..
i guess its because something happened.
then only i will post here..

i know..i know its all my fault
im the one who cheat on u
im the one tt lied so much

i yap dao chuan,23 this year
im mariadged and i have a son
he is yap tian you (adriel)
dear baby,
no matter wat happen when u grow up
be strong,,
papa really love u so much
this night
i cried in front of u
a lot,,sad,,
whenever i think tt i cant see u anymore
i cant stop myself from crying
papa bad,,
papa do something tt hurt ur mama
pls love ur mama always..

Dear wife,angela
thank you so much for wat u did
thank you for bringing baby to this world
but i guess
i made his life and ur life sucks
sorry ya
maybe untill i die u also wont forgive me

I WILL LEAVE U WITH MY BABY
its always sound so easy for u

I DONT WANT ANYMORE
i dont understand

URE SO USELESS
im agree with it

because of passion
a lot people will success
but they have to sacrifice a lot

and me
because of my personal life
i sacrifice a lot to hide myself
running from the reality

I LOVE U ALL,U KNOW?
for u its just like dont make me stupid
enough yap
i had enough of this

and i wonder why a family will broke tt easy
karma??
well i believe tt
maybe few year later i will be a monk

I REALLY DO LOVE U ALL SO MUCH

the reason

I'm not a perfect person
There's many things I wish I didn't do
But I continue learning
I never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know
I've found out a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is you
I'm sorry that I hurt you
It's something I must live with everyday
And all the pain I put you through
I wish that I could take it all away
And be the one who catches all your tears

再一次，我又哭了。。
原来当一个天使，是这么的难。。
我以为我可以做得到，
但我发现，原来我也是凡人一个。。
你以为我喝酒是为了爽吗？
也不是为了好睡点。。
喝太多，不用想这么多，晕了多好。。
喝太少，想得更多，越哭越痛苦。。
最近的你，变了很多，
我们也不像以前那样了。
话题少了，见面也少了，
连想我也少了。。
人生就是这样。。
每一次我爱的人，却不是爱我的人。。
我心里有话想说，心里的痛你懂吗？
有太多太多的情感覆水难收。。
也许你我的缘份就这样短吧，
没关系，我认命，我sui!!
如果你有了新的目标，
请你告诉我吧，
别让我这样猜测下去。。
因为这样比暗恋还来得痛苦你懂吗？？

My decision

Well...

i had made up my mind to leave her..

its quite hard for me,

but i will try my best..

And yah..we have no relation at all,

juz that i think too much..

That's the end of our stories,yes?

happy together with him ya..

byee...

BenBen&WuTao

Well..its been a long time i didnt upload blog..
This few weeks there's lots of things happen in my life..

The good news is i already let my ex go..

The good news is im falling in love with a girl..

I like to talk with her,

coz its comfortable..

She's really a good girl..

But,we wont have ending..

Coz i think i will not start it..

i know that she's still loving HIM..

So,i don wanna make her life more suffering..

When i look into her eyes,

i saw its all bout him..

She cried in front of me,coz she's worry bout HIM..

Well,i didnt do much..

jus give her few hugs..

And try to make her comfortable..

This feeling is complicated..

That night i told her that i already let her go..

but i think she wont know that i didnt..

That night is the 3rd times i cried for her..

But i didnt ask for more..

i juz wan her to happy always..

i wish her can happy together with that boy,

that's already good enough for me..

Bless u from my heart..

Lastly,i juz wanna tell u that,

Smile always..=)

p.s

Pls don mind that i put ur photo here,

there's the only memories for me..

no one

hey baby,
its been 1 month we seperate..
do u miss me?
maybe for 1 sec?
im doin good right now..
but im still missing u..
i think u don know bout it,
coz i promise myself wont text u,
coz that will hurt me..
they say time will help me to forget u,
but i think its take few years,maybe?
i used 3 years on my 1st ex...
are u doin good too?
feels free without my control?
maybe someday later,u will know its for ur own good..
but nvm...now i let u to walk ur own way..
sometimes i really hate u,
coz u doin something that i don like u to do..
but then u never know bout it,
i make the pain for myself,
then i suffer it back..
love you= hate you...
i think im not suitable for love..
im sucks on it...
i don mean to hurt anyone,
juz that u all didnt know me well...
if u say im controlling u too much,
then did u think bout why am i doin so?
don tell me that u are sorry..
coz its not worth if u dono why am i doin so...
oh ya...now i don have feel with beers anymore,
now i like chiwas+beers..
only can cover all those sad feels..

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