BenBen&WuTao

Well..its been a long time i didnt upload blog..
This few weeks there's lots of things happen in my life..

The good news is i already let my ex go..

The good news is im falling in love with a girl..

I like to talk with her,

coz its comfortable..

She's really a good girl..

But,we wont have ending..

Coz i think i will not start it..

i know that she's still loving HIM..

So,i don wanna make her life more suffering..

When i look into her eyes,

i saw its all bout him..

She cried in front of me,coz she's worry bout HIM..

Well,i didnt do much..

jus give her few hugs..

And try to make her comfortable..

This feeling is complicated..

That night i told her that i already let her go..

but i think she wont know that i didnt..

That night is the 3rd times i cried for her..

But i didnt ask for more..

i juz wan her to happy always..

i wish her can happy together with that boy,

that's already good enough for me..

Bless u from my heart..

Lastly,i juz wanna tell u that,

Smile always..=)

p.s

Pls don mind that i put ur photo here,

there's the only memories for me..

no one

hey baby,
its been 1 month we seperate..
do u miss me?
maybe for 1 sec?
im doin good right now..
but im still missing u..
i think u don know bout it,
coz i promise myself wont text u,
coz that will hurt me..
they say time will help me to forget u,
but i think its take few years,maybe?
i used 3 years on my 1st ex...
are u doin good too?
feels free without my control?
maybe someday later,u will know its for ur own good..
but nvm...now i let u to walk ur own way..
sometimes i really hate u,
coz u doin something that i don like u to do..
but then u never know bout it,
i make the pain for myself,
then i suffer it back..
love you= hate you...
i think im not suitable for love..
im sucks on it...
i don mean to hurt anyone,
juz that u all didnt know me well...
if u say im controlling u too much,
then did u think bout why am i doin so?
don tell me that u are sorry..
coz its not worth if u dono why am i doin so...
oh ya...now i don have feel with beers anymore,
now i like chiwas+beers..
only can cover all those sad feels..

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2 weeks

its already 2 weeks that we broke up...
and i think we changed a lot...
theres no more sweet but juz argue...
and i know its my fault..
coz keep argue with u....
sometimes i feels like dieing...
coz this time really hurt me too much...
i gave you all my heart...
and now my whole heart is bleeding..
i feels like im going to hurt myself....
so that i know im still alive with the pain...
or maybe can someone drunk me up???
JD+beers? redwine + beers? graveyard???5 bucket of beers?
if anyonefeels wanna drunk me up...
pls call me...anytime..anyplace...
u pay the money...
i pay my life....

Broken Hearts

baby...today is 5th of september...
and u know today is wat day?
its our 3rd month aniversarry..
and we broke up the day before this...
although im asking u to letting me go...
but then do u know i really suffer when im saying that...
and now its all over...its over...
I LOVE YOU STILL BABY..
i have no more chance to cook ur favorite mushroom soup and carbonara again..
i have no more chance to hugs u when u're cool..
i have no more chance to kiss you..
i wont forget our memories together..
and now im leaving u d...
pls do take care of urself...
i really hope that u wont luan shui anymore...
this is a last things that baby hope...
i dono when will u saw this text..
but when u saw it..pls think back of our times..
I LOVE U AND SORRY FOR WAT I DID..
goodbye baby...
9.20pm 5th october 2009
by mehmeh..
with a broken heart..its still bleeding..

fuck off

this text is for those mother fucker in my life..
in front of me act like brother..
behind me???
u juz threat me like a sohai..
i wan u to know that don think i dono wat was happening ok??
don think i was that dumb..
if u wanto fuck me face by face then juz come..
i wait u at ipoh..
if u wan the things then juz take it..
don do so much things behind me..
btw...
the things doesnt mean much to me..
juz a machine for me..
if u wan then take it..
coz its already used by me..
o0o o0o

speechless

im really speechless now..
nothing that i can do now..
no one know how i feel now..
i ned someone to talk with..
but theres no one..
nvm la nvm la..
let it be....
let me become like this..
promise = rubbish..
let me die with those rubbish..
when my times come..
forget the wrong that ive done..
help me leave behind some..
reason to be missed..